I cannot remember, but what's certain is he told me he's sorry....

Like being shot by a gun, I cannot think straight. Only my laugh came out. So i laughed, and laughed. Just because laughing without a reason, I said let me just ask one thing,"Why are we breaking up? How are we breaking up? How can we?"

In a hole inside my chest, our memories overflow. I try to catch it, i try to block the gaps, it escapes me between my fingers. Even my heart stops like this, it wouldn't hurt as much as this. Please do something, please heal me. If i go this way, my heart will crumble. In a hole in my chest.

Suddenly these tears, it drops without me knowing. I hate it so much. I hate it. I hate it, I really do. You who stood up, i followed. I followed you without any plans. Walking away like you were running away, from behind you. From behing you, i shouted.

Like being shot by a gun, my heart hurts so much. It hurts so much, it hurts so much. Its weird that i am able to lead my life. How can i ever forget you? How can I? I just don't know how. I really don't. There is a hole in my chest. And i can't fill in the hole. It hurts more than anything.

Like being shot by a gun...

He looks at me, I feel his heavy gaze. I know, I know even by looking at his gaze without any words. He is gonna leave me. Please just don't say those cold words. Oh baby, we did well although the darkness came.

You were the star to shine on me here. The sunshine that hugged me with warmth. You did that, we were always together. This can't be true, don't leave me.

Baby i can't let you go! Don't wake me up from this sweet dream. Keep taking me inside the meaning of love.

Even though i cover both my ears, i still hear his voice. Oh baby, you told me you loved me.

You were the start to shine on me at that place. The sunshine that hugged me with warmth. You did that, we were always together. This can't be true, don't leave me!

Don't let go of my hand, even though our love rains. After the rain ends you can still see my Rainbow. That is the future in front of us. Althouth people complain, i still believe in my dream, that's you, my one and only sweet dream.

My sweet dream which goes further away without him. My sweet dream which fades away without him.



0:44 ~ SeungAh
1:11 ~ JiSook
1:18 ~ No Eul
1:26 ~ HyungYeong
1:55 ~ JaeKyung
2:09 ~ YunHye
2:38 ~ WooRi

something really serious and funny happened last evening.

as we were walking back from After Dinner drinks at Nektar, kenny banged into a Stop sign pole without noticing. it was very loud and looked really painful. as i bent down to help him up, i noticed blood trickling down his nose. that was it.

"Oh Shit," i thought. I scrutinised his nose carefully. Then i noticed it.

"HOLY SHIT!" his implant moved! i was like so scared shit. i helped him all the way to Mt Elizabeth Hospital, which is a short 10 minute walk away. It was quite a sight. Kenny slouched on my shoulders in a daze, my crying and hobbling along the street, trying to get to the hospital faster. Then some kind soul actually stopped by to ask us if anything is the matter. She saw kenny's bloody nose and went like "CRAPS!" she quickly helped him into the backseat of the car and i shoved him in to make space for me. She asked if she should send us to the nearest government hospital and i was like NO! take us to Mt E please, no government hospitals for us!

Thanks to that kind soul, we managed to get to the hospital in like three minutes and got kenny into the A & E area faster than i could manage. TO THAT KIND SOUL, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR HELPING US THAT NIGHT. DO DROP ME A MESSAGE HERE ON MY BLOG. we'd be delighted to have you and your family to dinner with us! oh and i need to seriously pay you for the cleaning services too!

Lovely Dr Noo is such an angel too. When she learnt from the nurses that kenny got admitted to hospital because of an accident and his implant got shifted out of place, she actually came down from her home in Tanglin to take care of him! We were so blessed that we did all our plastic surgery with Dr Noo.. God bless her soul! ^^

fortunately the surgery went well and ended in like and hour plus. so kenny now got a new nose and a new chin. Dr said don't worry the corrective work is on the house (wee!!) and he will be able to start working within a week's time as these are just corrective and not a full surgery. thank goodness the scars are very minimal and non invasive.

so i hope everything goes well now for my dear hubby and hope he gets to use his new appendages as soon as possible! Love you Hubby!! ^^

A Full Bloom Spring Is Here

i got home today to a surprise! as you know, our 8th Anniversary was on last Friday, we were not able to properly celebrate it as it was a working day and i had an errand to run during lunch hour. So he made it today! it was so nice! so nice i tell you! to all you single people out there, GET A BOYFRIEND! GET A GREAT GUY LIKE MY KENNY!! He made a full course dinner all by himself! i'm so touched! i knew he could cook, but i knew too that he didn't have the time. While i was out all morning and afternoon with my friends, he made me this for dinner!

Starter ~ Baby spinach and Snaps tossed in Limoncello

Soup ~ Hot and Sour chinese soup

~ Bread Basket ~

Main ~ Sea Bass served with Dill Hollaindaise and Creamy Potage

Sweets ~ Apple Tart and Raspberry Compote

~ Coffee ~

~ After Dinner Drinks ~

It was really nice, the entire house was also filled with carnations and roses and lit vanilla candles dot here and there, scenting the entire house. It was a great dinner, enjoyed slowly. at our own leisurely pace, without the rush of other patrons, with great company. after the dinner, we moved out into the open balcony and popped a champagne bottle. "To another 10 years" he said. "Let's retire together" i said. That was like so cute!

We snuggled together on the floor of the balcony and gazed onto the horizon in each other's warmth. He is the only person in my life who accepts me entirely for who i am, without any compromising. He is the only person who knew how to control me, without making me feel interfered. He is the most beautiful balance i can ever have in life. Honestly without him, it won't be a Full Story.



Dearest Kenan,

It's been 8 years since we've enjoyed each other's company. Its like I know you inside out, what you know i know and what i know you know too. I still remember how you asked me out and i'm still tickled by how suave you said it. it must be in your genes. being suave. haha!

I'd like to formally apologise for all my wrongdoings for the past 8 years. I'm sorry for always being tardy for all our appointments. I'm sorry for always speaking my mind without thinking of your feelings. I'm sorry for always being fussy and childish. I'm sorry for being so particular in the kitchen and living area. I'm sorry for being such a neat freak at home. I'm sorry for driving you up the wall sometimes with my antics. You do not show it, but i can tell that you're extremely unhappy with me sometimes. I'm sorry for making you worry sometimes about my personal problems. I'm so sorry to trouble you for the past 8 years.

Sometimes when i think back, you'd be much more successfull without me tagging along with you all the time. I know you have all that potential and greatness in you but you can't let it show because of me. I know you would've easily got a position in the Head Bank in JPN or even as the Canadian or American Head. But you did not want to leave me alone here in singapore again. You're still young. You must have been so greedy for that career advancement and the wealth of experience that will bring you.

But you are always so patient to me. Always smiling and happy. You are the strongest pillar i can ever have. When i am troubled and pissed about something, lying next to you while you sleep and listening to your humming heart will make me forget all my worries. You bring me down to Earth when i am aiming too high. You are such a romantic and so accepting of who i am. You are such an adorable guy. and you will always be.

We overcame so many obstacles to getthis far. 8 years. It's nearly a decade. If we can last this long, we can last an eternity together. Irregardless of what other people say about you or us. As long as we are true to each other and give our hearts to each other, whatever other people say is just hindrance that we can live without. You've done so much for me and its time i give my all to you.

Let our love bloom Till Eternity.

Love Khai

I've always been a strong person,
Things are now alright with me.
Even though life gets you weary,
Don't let it get you down, overcome!

Everything sounds like a bunch of bull,
Everything sounds like a bunch of lies.
A full bloom spring will arive, believe it.
Sing it with me cha cha cha!

Today this lonely man is clenching his teeth.
Gonna learn about love and life once again.
Clear his mind and erase the past,
this lonely man will have the last laugh!

Even though you were scatter brained,
You're a cool Don Juan.
Even though you may not make me laugh,
When i see you i'm so glad!

omg! hubby bought me an iphone 4!! weeeeeeee!! and its the white one too!! woohoo! it takes smashing photographs too!

alas, i'm too lazy to post them here. you can see some of the pictures on my facebook page! here is the url!!


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