For one more day, BITCH!

oh my!! two more days! AND ITS CONFIRMED!! you'll be coming back in 2 more days!! (oh you may be wandering, why the days to countdown differ from date to date, well its because its not confirmed. THIS IS DIFFERENT! its confirmed!!) so happy!!!

But a few days ago i was really upset. My ex boyfriend called me up and said he missed me and that could we start over. i told him to fuck off and to go to hell. and he was like pleading and crying with me telling me that he was sorry and such, for giving me such a hell of a relationship. i told him i'm hapily together with ken for close to 5 months now and to not be a third party. i told him to seriously calm down and again, i told him to go to the place where all ex boyfriends go to ( HELL ). he was persuading me and stuff. and oh gawddd.... i just can't stand men who 1) Can't stand on his own two feet 2) go all sappy over a broken relationship 3) who CHEATS. The CHEATING part is a big no no no no no for me.

being in a gay relationship, a lot of these men can't stay committed to a guy and go fucking around every available gay / straight / bi men. and they proudly declare that they're in an open relationship. i mean, come on, wht the fuck is an open relationship? do you even understand the meaning of relationship??

yes, it was like that you were enough for me to listen, smoothly you made me an addict. Even when i heard pathetic lies, your voice made me want to believe them. I waver at the phonecall you make. I want to believe, you might have changed. I'm like a fool, why is it so easy? I should have never made up my mind, to forget you. Hell, you're even willing to sacrifice your current partner to be with me? like what the fuck?

goodness i feel so drained listening to him squeal and oink on the phone.

Your voice keeps lingering in my ears. Its a melody i have to listen to over and over. Your memory wraps me up again and again. How do i get away from you? Please stop, let me go now.

Why does my heart tumble down so easily? How can you still have control over me? Turn left, turn right, this way and that you play with me. And then put me down again. I know already, not like i don't know. I'm still going to the place you're at. I'm like a fool, why is it so easy? I should've never just said that. That it was the end.

Your voice keeps lingering in my ears. Its a melody i have to listen to over and over. Your memory wraps me up again and again. How do i get away from you? Even if its like this, even if its for a while, even if its a lie.

My voice tumbles for you. I'm just an accessory comfortable for you. Its such a predictable story, how do i, now, stop you? Your voice keeps lingering in my ears. Its a melody i have to listen to over and over. Your memory wraps me up again and again. How do i get away from you? Please, stop and let me go now..